With the glut of flux and change in my life as of the past year plus I’ve found myself with a alarmingly low tolerance these days for drama. The following has next to nothing to do with horses, a little detour as I take all the gunk in my head and dump it out to process - if you've been reading this blog for any length of time you know you get lots ponies and a healthy dose of spirituality from time to time...so strap yourself in.
Drama with myself and others just hasn’t been sitting well with my lately, but I believe it’s because God’s been teaching me to live outside of that spirit of fear I’ve had my feet so firmly planted upon and to instead live out of a spirit of love.
I’m not trying to be callous, it’s just I am quicker to let go of things that just are not working anymore and that are distracting my focus off of God’s good plan for my life. Getting out to the barn every day, not working…so I’m not stressing over it. I am getting there when I can and enjoying every moment, living present in the moments that I have with Pongo. Guy I’m dating turns out to be a bit of a jerk face, that’s not working either for me so, see ya buddy... (PS - this one is HUGE for me, seeing as I have an unshakable proclivity for seeking approval from jerk faces).
I'm learning drama is a direct result of fear and living in fear is disobedience to God. I had no idea what was coming my way when I wrote my last post about being given 2 Tim 1:7, the events of this past weekend are almost comical when I look at how foreshadowed it all was. In the midst of it, I take a moment to look the enemy square in the eye and say “get OFF my promised land”, then I return my gaze UP to tell God, I will not live in a spirit of fear, but instead of peace, love and sound mind. I'm gonna pass the tests set out by God and stomp all over the snares thrown in there by the enemy and be all the better for it.
Hoping on His good promises - rattled but not derailed. Progress :)
Nicku - this is one of my favorite quotes from Mary Baker Eddy, "Heaven smiles on you, angels rejoice over you. Press on."
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That is a delightful quote and it put a smile on my face. I've had a few of those types of quips swirling through my head today, I will for sure add this one to the bank! Thank you, thank you!
ReplyDeleteYour post was music to my ears. I love watching you bloom into the woman God intended you to be.
ReplyDeleteLove this commentary on drama. I have my own non-horsey stresses trying to steal their way into my life, and this was refreshing. :)
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